My chickens perched on a rail.
A vivid memory.
After the red fox arrives
with cunning allure.
2 hours ago
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
What Scares Me
Things I am scared of change with time. I used to be scared of the dark and spiders. Now, I am at peace with the dark and catch and release the spiders for my own children. I used to be afraid of not having any friends, but now I have some very good friends. I once was scared of how my life would change when I had to move or had children. I have faced both and one child had surgery the day she was born. Still not all that scary.
What scares me now, today, this moment in time. In a catastrophic view of fear, my kids dying. That scares me. It does not scare me that they would be scared of dying but how would I react to life without them. I have lost so much. How would my body tolerate losing more? I'm scared to think of how hard it would be.
More scary to me on a day to day basis are children today. They play too many violent video games, they communicate only by texting and IMing. They say they are talking but I don't hear any words. They can make a family on the computer and manipulate the characters. They don't know how to ride bikes, design forts in trees or on the ground. Roller blade, ice skate and shoot hoops, gone. The peer pressure to do or not do is extreme. They send pictures and update profiles. The drugs that are available put to shame the options from 20 years ago. And mostly they are getting fat. Parents are to busy to make a meal and offer food from real sources, like carrots and apples, rather than chips from a cylinder. Some are impressed that you can "make" cookies. So, they can't swim, can't run, and can't jump rope. The creativity to sew, design and fix something seems to have vanished. The recieve education one day and the follow up test the next to track progress and record results. The logic and problem solving in our children's classrooms seem to be left to, who will close the door for the lock down drill.
That is scary.
What scares me now, today, this moment in time. In a catastrophic view of fear, my kids dying. That scares me. It does not scare me that they would be scared of dying but how would I react to life without them. I have lost so much. How would my body tolerate losing more? I'm scared to think of how hard it would be.
More scary to me on a day to day basis are children today. They play too many violent video games, they communicate only by texting and IMing. They say they are talking but I don't hear any words. They can make a family on the computer and manipulate the characters. They don't know how to ride bikes, design forts in trees or on the ground. Roller blade, ice skate and shoot hoops, gone. The peer pressure to do or not do is extreme. They send pictures and update profiles. The drugs that are available put to shame the options from 20 years ago. And mostly they are getting fat. Parents are to busy to make a meal and offer food from real sources, like carrots and apples, rather than chips from a cylinder. Some are impressed that you can "make" cookies. So, they can't swim, can't run, and can't jump rope. The creativity to sew, design and fix something seems to have vanished. The recieve education one day and the follow up test the next to track progress and record results. The logic and problem solving in our children's classrooms seem to be left to, who will close the door for the lock down drill.
That is scary.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
knack, varied, crush, 3 word wednesday
A sudden, crushing blow to my heart.
Varied emotions to follow.
Finding the knack of learning to survive, alone.
Varied emotions to follow.
Finding the knack of learning to survive, alone.
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